I believe in the power of positive thinking, but I have got to tell you I am starting to get a little depressed.
I honestly thought our house would be sold by now, that by summer we would be gallivanting through China. But here we are still, trapped by these four walls.
We can’t leave on our adventure until our house sells and our market is really slow. To make matters worse, we thought we were doing the right thing when we made our house as environmentally friendly as we could afford to but after putting all that extra money into making an amazing home we may have priced ourselves out of the market. It turns out that people coming to this small town may not see or understand the extra value of a lower impact house.
At the beginning of the year I was full of positivity. I drew my vision board with a big sold sign in the middle. I didn’t even consider the prospect of the house not selling. And now negativity is creeping in. I am starting to resent the house. The thought of having to spend another winter in it makes me mope. I am finding it hard to keep up my positive energy. I feel stuck, I feel trapped.
And while intellectually I realize that everything is happening for a reason and that the worse case scenario is we have to spend more time than we expected living in a beautiful house, I can’t seem to shake the funk. I realize that my thoughts are petty and that in the grand scheme of things our family is incredibly lucky. And I am doing my best to find joy and appreciate every moment but I keep circling back to anxiety.
So, please send some positive energy my way, I could use a pick me up!